Blogs & Journals

Welcome to the mad, mad world that is my mind. I find a lot of myself goes into my writing particularly the dark stuff. I think its my way of working it out with myself so people don't have to put up with it. I'm a pretty cheery guy outside of my writing so its got to go somewhere.

On a more pleasant note: I'm really excited to post some of my work and trade ideas and network with kindred spirits or folks with a different perspective cuz that's how you grow right? Looking through different perspectives.

Again thanks to all who read, I hope you enjoy some of my scribbles....

Poem I wrote about relationships last year.


"Paradise in the Rough"

Banished from the garden
fall from paradise to rough reality

Hit the ground running, taking strife in stride.
forge a road to tread with worn hands.
A broken man, lost woman, left to their own devices to find a way to stay breathing in crowded air.

Time falls hard, passes cold, complex.
New worries every day,
unstable emotions in the way
purity quickly fades.

Livin' hard, loving tender
perfect company, broken dreams

Writers Block, I suffer from it dayly. Whether it's just that no ideas are coming forth into my head, or no words are spilling onto the random peices of paper that cover my room. The only one gaining anything good from my suffering is my cat, Chocolate Mix. She much rather perfers a peice of paper to poke holes into than a catnip mouse or a string.

I have had my cat for almost four years now, ever since my grandfather found out one of his many cats [and the barn on his farm used to consist of more than forty cats] had had kittens. Due to the many tame, and wild, cats he wasn't going...

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Introduction:
Gaming has been a passion of mine for many years. I'm currently 25 and have been doing gaming for about a decade now. I've started and abandoned many different personal tabletop game projects over the years. There are very few that I've actually stuck with and really thought have the ability to shine in the market of competitive gaming as a popular choice for gaming as well as being a popular...

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

A New Beginning:

Unfortunately, I let the Iridian Project fall to the side. Fortunately, I've decided to begin it again.

The original project was too much of a copycat of other works for me to truly enjoy it, anyway, so now I'm beginning totally from scratch... Except, I'm keeping the name. Anyway, I'll post most the basic information again.

The Iridian Project is a world-building project designed on the guides of several...

About the Author:

It's not everyday that you wake up with a cyborg pirate standing over you, demanding you to join his quest for the Techno-Treasure. He orders you to get ready quickly, as you run about your room deciding what you would need on an interstellar adventure through the Milky Way. It is not often that you find yourself studying the odd looking pistol he hands you, which shoots deadly rainbows. And I was definitely never before hauled aboard a spaceship ship, sailing off to fight dangerous aliens on the moon. In fact, I've never had a day like that. I wake up again, confused....

A passing thought. A glimpse of insight. An uncontrollable urge. A passionate desire. Merely a multitude of scribbles and words strewn around.

Passerby, ware! Stop, you may, but never stare. For within is chaos. For within is my mind. Come. Welcome. Step into Enigmas Aeternos, and be forever trapped in its twisted paths.






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~Comments are allowed, but no spamming please.
~I found out that some of these words of mine...

- Every statement/observation/analysis/thought applies to the page in question. One line about a character on Page Four's reflection doesn't mean it's going to hold true by the time we hit Page Five....

Well....I don't really know how to start this. Although I have been writing semi-seriously for more than a year now, I've never tackled the challenge of actually having a blog. The reasons for this I cannot really explain. Sure, I've read blogs, I've seen blogs, I've laughed my ass off while browsing blogs...but the thing is, I never understood them. Why do people write blogs? Is it some urge to share ideas? To listen to their own voice, in a way? To get the illusion that someone actually cares about their views? Or simply a good way to vent, to blow some steam? Who knows, I suspect it is a mix...

Well, there isn't much to mention perhaps, but I find it soothing sometimes to just... write down whatever comes to mind. I don't know, I often find it difficult to just tell people stuff, as I always feel misunderstood, maybe on completely wrong grounds. Or that people won't listen to me. It learns you to just shut up. But my brain and my thoughts never lay low. And perhaps therefor it's sometimes nice to be able to - as anonymous as you are right here, or perhaps as I am, as I don't know about others - just trust your words to this virtual reality where perhaps no one really cares, but at least...

Welcome to the dwelling place of my insecurities.

Be forewarned, here they have power. This is there place, we are merely guests to my personal demons. Should they deem you worthy, you might even live.

Let's meet the hosts, shall we?

Gynophobia: Ah, my old friend. A fear of women, crippling in it's strength, eroding in it's constant nature. If you're a female, expect me to mentally know you'll let me down. It's not sexism, but a crippling fear that every time I confide in any woman, they'll somehow tear me down. Yeah, stupid,...

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Comments accepted


so I've never really had a chance or tried blogging, so I thought I'd give it a try. It might be a chance to clear things up for myself. So here goes

A place for me to just talk about my life, my writing, whatever I really feel like at the moment; basically, what this is starts with that aspect and will grow as I add more to it. Feel free to write whatever you want, as well, because that's what I'll be doing.
Anyway, welcome!

I'm not calling myself on an expert on the subject of love, but over the last couple of months I've been writing my own little musings on the subject. Perhaps it was the loss of an almost three-year relationship that spurred me to this. Perhaps it was something more than that, or perhaps it is just my inner blogger crashing head-on with my inner hopeless romantic to create something more.

Kinda like a Reese's cup with a Philip DeFranco shell and a Nicholas Sparks center...or something like that >.>

In any case, you're more than welcome to comment to your heart's desire....

"I believe in Angels... Something good in everything I see." - ABBA



It's a quote I picked up from Final Fantasy IX (my favorite of the games). Comments are welcome, I won't shoot you if you comment about how I need to stop complaining or what have you, but don't expect me to be peachy keen about it. I assume this is a thread where I can write whatever I want, whenever I want to, and ... For lack of better purpose, vent.

Many of you here at FOG already know me, but for those who don't, you may refer to me as SilvanArrow, Silvan, or whatever else you prefer. This marks my first attempt at a blog, so even I don't know what all I will put on here. Expect some ranting. Expect some randomness. Expect thoughts about any writing or role-plays I'm involved...

A cookie to those who recognized the reference in the latter portion of my blog title.

So... my first blog here. I was never really concerned about being intellectual or having a neat writing style when it comes to blogging. I just write what I think. It's a damn blog, after all, not some Oxford essay. But, I guess it does serve the purpose of making the blog look somewhat more interesting by writing in such a way, as if you had been taught Shakespeare since you were barely able to stand upright on those stubby toes of yours.

But... whatever. If I do so, I know that...

Well let's see... Today I found a new forum I joined. This is the forum actually. It seems pretty cool.

I sorta have been lost in thought for a few days about some things... I hope I can figure them out, but even if I can't I refuse to let them get to me. I will not let my unbreakable bliss be broken.

I did a lot of work on my site, and by writing this I guess I'm sorta procrastinating... Haha, my friend is getting irritated because he wants to get this done. I should start on that...

Journal's Purpose: The purpose of this journal is to allow me to publicly write down notes of my role-play projects, upcoming role-play projects, and updates on them. This is the single best place to check up on those type of things. That's why I don't want comments being posted up here, but rather if you have one then it's better to PM it to me. There are a lot of other reasons why I prefer that instead and I will not...

Project Alys

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What is Project Alys?
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Chapter 1: Khyamadus -- 6056 total words

Scene 1: Character and Setting Introduction -- 558 words
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Hey Everyone,

Welcome to what will be my regular blog here on FOG.
Asides a Personal Journal of sorts for me, I plan this blog mainly to be a place to state my views on events (both past historical and current), Music (Expect allot of Rock & Metal), Gay rights, all things related to human rights generally and the occasion annotation on life through the eyes of a British born, French raised 18 year old.

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02/09/09 - Topic:

Wave Goodbye, The final goodbye...

I guess this will be somewhat of a journal. You'll get to see abstract thoughts, stories and commentaries from some thirteen year-old kid. Yeah, I know. I'm lame.

Anyways comments and critique is always welcomed!

I just have to wonder if I'm the only one who's ever looked at a picture or album of pictures and had the innocent ruined by a back story I know... It just feels weird, especially when my mind starts picking up on things I wouldn't have imagined.

I have these two friends, one a rather flirty hetero(A) and the others a rather eccentric I don't know what the hell (B) and I just saw some pictures of them. A's already told me that B has hit on...

Much consideration aside, I've decided to post a library of some of my works in here as well as the occasional ooc post. Here they be!

Here are and will be contained the spontaneous expressions of myself. Poetry created in the spur of the moment by some strange mixture of atmosphere and emotion, written in raw, unedited words. Read if you wish, reply if you so desire, but don't ask if or when more might come, for I don't even know myself.

So, never has I ever done a thing like this before. I suppose I'm suppose to write something witty here everyday, about my life, but that would be pretty boring. First thing first, please feel free to comment on anything I write here. I intend to write short blurbs here daily to expand my writing, now that I have finally decided to get serious about my career. Also expect much weirdness to come out of this place, as I prepare to bust down all the walls of my psyche, and release the full potential of my imagination.

Abandon faith, all yea who dare read further.

This will make things easier for me. This isn't for your eyes, though i won't be upset if i have comments or anything from time to time. I will be using this as a stream of consciousness, and a little bit of a personal blog.

This is so much more easy, considering the dark tones and the light text [SOOOO much easier on the eyes]. Not to mention i'm usually down for feedback from other people. Though if you're coming here to criticize[blatantly or otherwise], respond sarcastically, or provide your opinion that will not take this thread anywhere, i will in fact be completely ignoring you....

I've decided that there is to much left untold about my life. I've told various aspects, shared my feelings on many things, but there seems to be something else I can share with this thread. So here we are. This used to be Critical Thinking? but has now been renamed My Life. So here we are, welcome to My Life

Note: As always, please comment, critique, etc. Thank you.