Re: The Complaints Thread >:(

[Eternity]

Fuck you you stupid piece of shit, I regret the day I ever was dumb enough to even spare you the light of fucking day. You try your hardest to make my life living hell, and you know what you did to me, don't act like you didn't break up my fucking world because you're a selfish fucking prick. I hate you, and I've only hated one other person in the world and that is my step father.

I hate you because you said I cheated. You are spreading rumors that I cheated on you with Willie, but he fucking FORCED himself on me, and I cried to you about how I didn't want it to happen, how he stopped in the middle of a back road in the dark, no houses or cars or people and came onto me, and I ciound't move, but no, I FUCKING CHEATED ON YOU because he locked his disgusting lips to mine and put his hand between my legs as I BEGGED him to sttop

Then you say that I cheated on you with ben, becuse me and ben have been talking and dating before I broke up with you
YOU ARE SO FULL OF ARROGANT SHIT YOU JACKASS, I didn't start talking to ben until you MOVED HOME. He didn ot cnovince me to break up with you, I did because you were treating me like siht in front of your friends and you wuoldn't touch me and you refused to treat me like a girlfriend instead of your goddamn maid.

so do NOT try to come to me and tell me to enjoy my life sitting at home on my ass, wasting my life away roleplaying and drawing pictures while talking to my imaginary boyfriend on the fucking internet. I hope you get herpes frmo your trailer trash baby momma, you ignorant son of a bitch. I hope your dick rots off from all the stupid shit you've done without me, because I was the best woman you'd ever had, and when you treat women like trash, you will only attraect trash. So say goodbye to me one last time, this good woman has finally found a good man. So goodbye and fuck you too.

[Kathryn Lacey]

Eternity, I'm sorry that those things happened to you. I sincerely hope that you eventually find a decent guy who will make you feel wonderful who will in turn feel that way when he's around you.

I know it's cliche, but you are still young. When I was sixteen, I thought I'd found the love of my life, but it turned out that he was a selfish asshole, and it didn't work. Now, I've found someone better who is nothing like who I would have thought I'd choose for myself. Just try to keep your options and your mind open to the possibilities.

I know it will likely take you time to get over this. I don't blame you, but I hope it comes easily for you. That guy sounds like a real loser. You deserve much better.



I complain that people feel a need to solely blame other people and other factors on their desire to leave a game rather than taking responsibility for their own lack of drive. If a person isn't going to even try to take the initiative to plot story lines with other people, they really have very little right to say that they're leaving because a game is getting "clique-y." It's rather ridiculous, and it makes me want to smack people upside their heads.

[Lara]

Okay, Eternity's post makes me feel like my own anger feel almost ridiculous. I'm sorry you have to go through that.

But...still. GRAH.

I was originally scheduled to work this weekend from 8 a.m. to roughly 5 p.m. on Saturday. My boss called Wednesday, asking if I would be willing to work the 5:00, 7:15, and 9:30 games on Saturday as well, effectively increasing my work day from 8-5 to 8a.m.-midnight. Mrh. But whatever, I've done it before and I could definitely use the extra money, so I said to myself "what the heck" and told him yes. Mistake number one.

Then, he called this morning around 9:30 a.m., asking me if I could work the 7:15 and 9:30 p.m. games tonight because the person originally scheduled bailed. Again, I figured I could use the money, and hey, it was only two games, right? Right? So I said yes. Okay, fine and dandy.

I got to work at 7 p.m. on the dot in order to be on time for the game that started at 7:15. The 5:00 game was still going on (which should have been my first sign that this night was going to majorly suck), and the girl who was score-keeping for it had to move to a different booth to watch her next game, which was about to start. So I stepped in and finished score-keeping the 5:00 game, which finally ended at 7:15 (the stupid coaches were arguing for about twenty minutes about a freaking bat. Apparently it didn't meet some sort of regulation, or some other bull excuse).

The 7:15 game was pushed back to about 7:30 because, naturally, the teams needed to warm up. ...The game went by insanely slowly. They only played 5 innings, but it took until 9:30 for the game to FINALLY end (really! A mercy game, and it took LONGER than a 7-inning game was supposed to take!). Then to top it all off, the umpires had to switch out, which meant that the 9:30 game didn't start until...10.

The 9:30 game finally wrapped up at 12:15 a.m. I was the last score-keeper remaining in the booth, and I still had to go clean up the dugouts, so I didn't leave until 12:30.

Long story short, my anger is placed not only in the fact that these games all left me incredibly frustrated, but I'm payed by the game, not the hour. $15 per game. $30 for the night. And I was there for [i[5 and a half hours[/i].

And to top it all off, I'm stuck going back there in seven hours!

F***ers.

[Silvan Arrow]

I complain about my general lack of patience today. So here's the deal. For those of you who don't know, I worked a summer job that involved taking care of reptiles, giving nature programs, feeding wolves, and lots of fun stuff like that. Well, I had a partner, a guy my age, and we've gotten to be really good friends. I mean, when you spend 8 hours a day, 5 days a week together, it's kind of hard not to get to know a person. I never really intended for this to happen, but I've started to develop feelings for him. And unless I'm just completely socially inept, there's a very good chance he feels something for me as well. This wouldn't be bad, EXCEPT he's leaving to go back to college tomorrow and I'm leaving for grad school on Tuesday. We'll be in completely separate states and won't get to see each other who knows how long. I've been hanging out with him and his friends a lot since our job ended, and now I finally feel like a member of the group. To use a wolf analogy, I'm finally part of the pack.

I know I should be more excited to head off to grad school. I mean, I'll finally get to do what I've always wanted to do with my life. I just wish these feelings weren't making it so painful. Today is basically the last day I'll get to see him for a long time, and last night he told me he would call me when he was awake so I could come over and hang with everyone. Well, it's after 3 now, and I'm thinking, REALLY? Did you really stay up all night last night, or did you just forget about calling me? I don't want to seem desperate by calling him first, but the waiting is driving me INSANE!

[Gadreille]

Who cares what he thinks? If you want to call, call! There is no reason not to. Perhaps he just doesn't know what to say, because he doesn't want to say good bye?

[Lara]

...I just worked from 7:45 a.m. Saturday morning to 12:35 a.m. Sunday morning. Straight. With a 'break' (a.k.a, five to ten minutes to clean out the dugouts and dash to the bathroom) every two to two and a half hours.

I...I feel physically ill right now.

[Silvan Arrow]

Hmmm...I'm not sure whether this belongs in the complaints or celebration thread. Anyway, he called not long after I posted this, and I had a great time with him. I'll definitely be replaying the memories in my head over and over when I miss him But now the joy is tinged with pain, as I fight to keep the ache out of my chest from not knowing when I'll see him again.

Now another complaint. So...some of you may remember me mentioning another guy friend that wanted to be more than friends, but I politely turned him down. Well, I wanted to smack him senseless after church today. I have the sense that he gets possessive when I talk to other guys. Case in point: After the service today I was talking to a guy that had just gotten back from spending two years in Peru. We had been in the same college Sunday school, and I was pleasantly surprised he remembered me. Well, when he asked me what my plans were, my friend jumps in and answers for me that I'm leaving for grad school soon. The other guy eventually gave him a weird look and just walked away, and I was mortified. And then he did it again when I was talking to my old Sunday school teacher. Um...EXCUSE ME. I can speak for myself, thank you very much. This isn't the dark ages where women have to have men speak for them because society expects them to keep their heads down in submission all the time.

And here's plot twist straight out of the book of cliches: The guy I like and my possessive guy friend KNOW EACH OTHER. Apparently they had a class together before my crush transferred schools and changed his major. How's THAT for irony?

[Gadreille]

I have five RPs I'm actively in, and I can't post in any of them. It's not my turn in any of them, and I'm the last poster in 3 of them. Arg!

[Kalon Ordona II]

Go to Gaia and post in Errands of Mandor: Dragons Rising!

[Gadreille]

Oh dear, I got rid of my Gaia account or I would It would be silly of me to make another one after going through the trouble of getting rid of the first.

[Kalon Ordona II]

oh. bummer.
Hmm... I guess you could message me your posts and I could post them for you, with appropriate graphics and stuff.

[Gadreille]

Hm. I'll consider the offer. I see that it hasn't gotten to far from where I left off. I don't want to commit just yet, because I might not be so bored tomorrow. *sigh* Life jumps around on me quite a bit!

[Kalon Ordona II]

I know the feeling. ^^

Righty-o, then. I complain thaaaaat.....
...thaaaaaat my TI-83 Plus calculator is still out of batteries!
I must go get some more for it. ^^

[Eternity]

Complaint: Red Robin's bleu ribbon burger is not letting me sleep. I've been off and on nauseous all night =_=

[Gadreille]

Ugh that sounds terrible Eternity!

I was feeling about ready to burst so I wrote out all of the things that were making me frustrated. Turns out there is quite a bit of drama going on that I was forcing myself to not think about, and now that I've thought about it I can at least justify my feelings, which for me is the first step of getting past them. I wish I could share it here but I feel that it is a bit too personal for other people in my life. I will repeat what I wrote on Facebook:

I feel like I am in a less funny version of Little Miss Sunshine. And for those of you who haven't seen it, the film is not all that funny.

[Lara]

-sigh- I complain that the first day of band camp is barely over, and already there are problems popping up between my various college friends. I had been hoping that with an entire summer for people to calm down, things would at least wait a week or two to show up again.

Still, I'm trying to make the best of it. I've been friendly and held an open mind about everyone I didn't like last year, and I'm trying not to feel too frustrated about anything that happened in the past. It's just...difficult, when the people I care about the most are the ones having issues with each other.

[Silvan Arrow]

I complain that I'm going stir crazy over a guy who's seven hours away in another state. Just as backstory, I worked with this guy over the summer, we got really close, and we promised to keep in touch before we went our separate ways. Well, he called me on Friday and everything was great, and now I can't get ahold of him to save my life. He doesn't answer his phone when I try to call, and I'm going crazy trying to figure out why. Most likely it's probably a harmless reason, like he left it on silent or lost it somewhere. But my mind always overanalyzes things and thinks of the worst possible scenario, like he doesn't want to talk to me anymore for some reason that I can't fathom. I mean, if you don't want to talk to me anymore, at least have the decency to tell me so I'm not left with a wounded heart wondering why. Message me on Facebook (which you never use, by the way) or leave a freaking voicemail. Just give me some closure so I'm not left hanging by a thread.

You'd think I would have learned by now not to get my hopes up. Three other times I've gotten hurt by guys who show interest and then backpedal when I start to fall for them. I don't even know why I'm this upset. Usually my feelings for someone fade after enough time passes where it's unreciprocated, but here the ache just gets worse and worse. Sometimes I wish I could just shut off my emotions completely so this will never happen again...

[Kathryn Lacey]

On the plus side, if he's avoiding you, it means he's not good enough anyway. No decent person leaves another person hanging like that.

I hope that's not the case, though.

[Silvan Arrow]

I hope so as well. I mean, he sounded really happy when we talked on Friday, so I can't imagine what could be keeping him from taking two seconds to pick up the phone and at least tell me why he's too busy to talk for long. I would totally understand that. It's the not knowing that's driving me up the wall. He told me to keep in touch, that I could call anytime I wanted to talk, heck, that he would send help if I got in trouble (he has family in the area, interestingly enough). So WHY does he not notice that I called and at least have the decency to return my calls?

[Kathryn Lacey]

I can't answer that. Only he can. I hope that he does have a valid reason for not doing that. =\

[Silvan Arrow]

Update: I finally got through! Turns out everything is fine; he's just been busy getting things organized in his new apartment and sorting out getting his internet hooked up. All is right with the world again ^_^

And in the interest of keeping this post on topic, I complain that I'll have to kiss my free time goodbye soon, since graduate school classes start tomorrow and I'll inevitably be up to my eyeballs in homework eventually.

[Kathryn Lacey]

I'm glad everything turned out to be all right, Silvan.


I complain that I feel emotionally unstable lately. I mean, I'm not angry all the time which is my usual marker for emotional instability, but I feel... unambitious... Usually, that's a sign that I'm depressed, and I kind of feel little hints of it off and on. I don't know if it's just the hormonal issues that go along with this time of the month...

I'm sure the fact that I've decided to cut my pills in half ((or however close to half I can get with a heated butter knife)) in an effort to ween myself off them isn't helping. They're too expensive, and if my insurance runs out when I turn twenty-one, I need to stop being so dependent on them.

I've been getting a lot of headaches lately which could be associated with either of the two problems above ((menstruation or withdrawal)). Ugh... I just want my emotions to be... calm and positive... ._.

[Gadreille]

Its very difficult when you want your emotions to be different than they are...because so many people just assume that you 'aren't really trying' or 'she's raging on PMS' or whatever. I can't stand that. Sometimes it is just out of your control even when you try your best. (By you, I mean everyone, not just you...) Anyway I know how you feel there.

[Eternity]

Loki went home today, leaving at 11:30-ish this morning. I miss him, love him, and feel impossibly lonesome already. Jeez... I miss his touch, his voice, the feel of his warmth and his lips and it's so hard.

I don't think I've ever missed anyone like this before...

[Kathryn Lacey]

Long distance relationships are tough. I've been in one with my current lover for almost two years now. It really doesn't get easier watching him go home or having to go home myself, but being able to see him even the few times a year that I'm able makes it all worth it.

Are you and Loki going to maintain a long distance relationship?

[Eternity]

We will continue to love each other from a distance <3

Complaint:

Vorrei che potessimo essere insieme. Vorrei poter essere con voi per sempre. Voglio amarti per sempre. Voglio guarire tutto il vostro dolore e lenire la tua paura. Darei qualsiasi cosa per te. Vorrei solo che non eravamo così distanti. Vorrei che fossimo insieme, dove la paura non sarebbe altro che un ricordo.


Ti amo così tanto.
Vorrei poter risolvere tutto.

[Silvan Arrow]

I'm glad you'll still maintain a long-distance relationship, but I'm sorry about the whole distance thing. I'm going through something similar, except I don't know how he feels about me. We're close, yes, but there wasn't enough time at the end of the summer for things to progress into something of a solidified dating relationship. I miss him terribly, and time/distance doesn't make the ache any less painful. Usually I can handle separation from friends after enough time and find peace in contacting them from a distance; I miss them, of course, but it doesn't HURT this much. So take comfort from the security of knowing his feelings for you, Eternity, and I'm sure that bond will sustain you both until you can be together in person again.

Another complaint: This has just been a long, aggravating day. Last night I had trouble sleeping, mainly because of thoughts caused by aforementioned man above, and didn't fall asleep until near 2 AM. Then I jerk awake, terrified, at 5 AM to the sound of the loudest thunder I've heard in my life. I've heard plenty of thunderstorms in my life, but I guess they're much worse when you live on the coast. I'm used to the thunder and lightning back home; this actually scared me. It was nearly 6 AM by the time it let up mostly, and then it took even longer for me to fall back asleep. Then I had to get up at 7:40 AM to make it to TA training at 9 AM, where I had to endure SIX HOURS of lectures, discussions, and workshops on teaching, most of which I won't even use in the labs I'll be instructing. And to make matters even better, I get to do the same thing tomorrow, along with fighting the other TAs over schedules. Oh fun times...

I'm going to be lame now and read my ecology homework on a Friday afternoon...

[Gadreille]

Somebody please hire me...

will work for work!

[Gunneh]

Argh! I get to bed at 6am this morning thinking I'll have, at most, about seven hours worth of being able to sleep before work...and I get a call from one of the managers saying that the guy that worked before me had to go home and they're without a janitor. I'll be working the rest of his shift plus my own.

I get off at 11:00pm.

It is currently 10:16am.

Most of the money in the "First National Bank of Gunneh" will probably be used on Monster and food products with heavy amounts of sugar today. Yaaaaaaaaaaaay -_________-;;

[Eternity]

These papers and money and all this crap crap crap for college. My mind is about to overload! I called my mother today too. She sold my car <.< and now I'm unsure of when or how or where I will get a car. Or where the money for one will magically come from. <__________<

Anyways. Other than that, I'm okay. Just soooo much math...

*fries her brain trying to do all the financial adding and whatnot*